Random thoughts about Addiction by C. Bowman

All my life it has been there....Insidious. I can tell you what addiction smells like, listerine flavored beer breath or smoke infested pores. Addiction looks like many things....But it destroys everything if it is not arrested. There are no cures for the afflicted but there is armor for the battle.

I knew as a very small child that there was something a little different about my home life. It's not any one thing, but a lot of small things that made me fear my Father's presence. Shame, anxiety, fear, survival.... All these words describe my constant mood as a child.

All my life I have surrounded myself with addicts? Why? Because it's all I've ever known. I understand addicts, there need for privacy, approval and unsolicited help. If you find a drunk I'm sure there will be a martyr (a.k.a co-dependent) close by! Most addictions would be cut in half if the people in the addicts life got help. It's hard for addicts to survive without enablers. It is equally hard for the co-dependents of the world to survive without their "save an addict fix".

So what does addiction look like?
It's the biggest known secret on the block! Everyone knows a little something about it, but no one wants to talk about it! Well at least not until it becomes life threatening.We have an epidemic going on right in front of us, and we still don't get it....that's addiction.